Collards

I'll be the first to say I love collard greens but the smell in horrible. Mom cooked me some tonite and the smell is unbelievable. I will probably smell like collards at the Dr tomorrow. Mom Dad April & Claire bear came over tonite and ate dinner. Claire just keeps getting cuter and bigger everyday. Jason and I watched Star Trek in bed tonite it was really good and he made me breakfast and had his Mom come over and gave me a pedicure this am. We had a talk and he's been being nice all day he knows I was upset and had a right to be. These babies are balling up tonite they feel diffrent. My Dad will be my sitter tomorrow and is going to the Dr with me he loves to see the babies.

nothing nice to say

So I guess I shouldn't say anything at all. I am so tired of life going on around me and I am stuck in a room mostly alone. When people come over they stop in off and on but everything is happening in the living room. Jason left me alone all day today and barely looked in on me. I am over it and tomorrow we will have it out. I just wish he could know how it feels to be in my shoes. But he is gonna know what I am thinking tomorrow.

Sleepy

Lack of sleep is catching up with me. I am about to take my meds and crash. one of my little people had hiccups earlier I didnt know that was what it was till my sister said so. It scared me at first felt like one might be trying to punch there way out. My left elbow is killing me from lying on my left side all the time. I think a bed sore might be trying to start. my family came over and ate dinner tonite Jason cooked steaks on the grill it was good to have everyone around. Tomorrow nite it will be Jasons family the UGA game and oysters. I am getting bigger quicker I think now which is good cause the babies are too. Well I guess i'll call it a nite.

Day two insomnia and last steroid shot

Well finally went to sleep at 6:30am Thursday morning to wake up at 10:30am Thursday morning and still be up now 1:45 Friday morning. Good thing I was up now tho, got to talk to my friend Michelle from Hawaii she was up her time. Nice to catch up I miss her terribly, wish she was here to see me go through this. She would help keep me sane. She always has when life gets tough, she knows just what to say. Anyway I hope she can come meet my Trio this summer. On a me note I am so sore tonite, my back is killing me and been doing more of that lovely leaking, kids just killing the bladder. But as I have said I love to feel my kicks. They are getting stronger now and they kick all nite. SCARY!!! I would also like to say my Mom has been wonderful and I am glad my sister brings Claire over you cant help but be happy around her little smiles. They are pretty much my constant visitors. It is amazing how many friends I can scale down off my cell phone list when this is all over since no one has kept in contact with me. Good friends are hard to come by especially when you thought you had as many as I did. It is amazing who disappears when you aren't the good time girl anymore. Se la vie and que sera sera!

Well it is late and whats on my mind? 24 weeks

As usual I am up waiting for 12:00 so I can take my anti-contraction medicine. Then I set the alarm to wake up to take my next dose then sleep till 930 or 1000. My Mom gave me my 1st steroid shot today and it didn't even hurt whew! Gotta take another one tomorrow same time different cheek. I am feeling more at ease with things. It is funny tho my stomach is sore I guess from the kicks. I am wondering how well I am gonna do buying Christmas gifts online, although I cannot afford much. I still have so much to buy before the babies get here. All the nieces and nephew will get something but a gift card shared might be all the adults get to a restaurant. I found a prayer that really touched my heart last nite and it was alot like how I felt before I got pregnant and how I would like to pray for somone who was in my shoes. I would like to share it.Someone else Angela Thomas from cbn wrote it but I loved it.

For Those Who Still Wait
Giver of Life,
My heart is burdened today for my friends who cannot have children. Like Hannah, they have spent years praying and grieving for a child who never comes. They are frazzled—worn out by doctors, books, specialists, drugs, and procedures. Many even dread seeing their families, weary of their sympathetic looks and tired of the same conversation. I grieve for my sisters and long for them to experience the wonder of new life growing and flourishing within their bodies.
Lord, give me tender compassion when I’m with them. I find myself talking about anything but pregnancy, overcompensating, understating the obvious, hoping I won’t say something hurtful. Even so, I think it hurts them just to be with me. I know some women who can’t go to baby showers or visit their friends with babies because their hearts are too raw and their pain too intense. I mourn for their hurt and pray for their healing.
Most of all, I ask that You would hear their prayers. Remember them. And grant them the answers they seek. After many years, You remembered Hannah and opened her womb. Please see my friends in their lament and answer their pleas for children. Let them rejoice with Hannah, who said in 1 Samuel 1:27, "I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him."
Thank You, Father, for watching over those who wait. I believe in the sufficiency of Your grace. I trust in the perfection of Your will. Because You bring life to the barren, there is power in my prayer.
Amen
In bitterness of soul Hannah wept much and prayed to the Lord.
—1 Samuel 1:10
He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the Lord.
—Psalm 113:9

ugh

Trying to stay in the bed as much as possiable today and from here on.So funny I am getting a baby monitor for me so my help can hear me. It is hard to get their attention if my door is closed and they are in another part of the house.Being in bed kinda wears you out it is kinda like being on a road trip you just wanna walk around and stretch after a while.

Went to Dr today

Stitch is holding kids are on track.Jason 1lbs 8oz,Jimmie 1lbs 5oz,Zoe 1lbs 5oz. They gave me the steroids for Jason to give me my shot Wed and Thurs so we are moving right along. I just need to stay down and keep gravity off my cervix. I will be so thankful when 30 weeks gets here which is Dec 30th. We have Jesus with us and he is holding onto us all will be just fine.I am so grateful to have gotten this far remember when I thought I would never find the right guy.Then it happened and I was so happy. Next we tried for so long to have a baby and even lost one along the way.Then we get pregnant with Triplets and we are shocked and in awe and happy.Now we are at the getting them here journey and this too will pass just like all the other things in life we thought would never come in a blink they will be in our arms. GOD IS GOOD TO US ALWAYS HAS ALWAYS WILL BE!!!!!

The weekend

Had family over sat and sun. I just wish I could interact with my nieces and nephew like I want. Got up this morning and had church in the living room which is good, two Sundays in a row now. I feel like I need to be the best version of myself to be an example for my kids. There is so much I need to curb about myself but it will change a piece at a time, I'm working on me though. The lesson has been fear the last two Sundays, something I have had to deal with in this pregnancy just getting a handle on it. I have learned God doest give you the spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind(2 Timothy chapter 1 verse 7). We can't let possible circumstances destroy our faith in Gods miracles in our lives thus my three little blessings. After lunch today I bailed for a nap, when I woke up everyone was gone. Felt kind bad about that. Now nothing is on the TV till storm chasers tonite. Well having a big Ultrasound tomorrow very excited about that. I'm 23 weeks 4 days!!!

Bittle is back

One nite only my Bittle is spending the nite. I miss her sooooo much all she has done since Jason brought her home is snuggle with me and sleep. She is my 1 yr old Boston Terrier. I had to find a home due to all the hospital time the kids and I will have. She has been gone a month to a friend of the family and I miss her, she was my daily companion. We just dont ever know when they will put me in the hospital not to come out again till they are here. I was told by my Peri anymore trips to the hospital after Wed will result in me staying there until they are born. I just wish I never had to give her up but they are good people and they love her too. I just feel like so much has changed in such a small period of times and some of the changes HAVE BEEN DIFFICULT AND PAINFUL. Chevy my 5 yr old bulldog had to be put down for aggression a couple of months ago and I had give Bittle away a monnth ago. Believe it or not it gets lonely too friends become more distant from work and never talk to others unless I call them. Sometimes you find out the hard way your friends are your friends only because you make the effort. My family has been very good and supportive, my friend Charlotte calls me and checks on me. i know everyone has their own lives but when you know a friend is down is all aspects of the word generally friends are suppose to come through. Whatever enough of that, I am ranting now. Well it is the weekend so my hubby will be with me so I am happy about that.

ugly

What is this crap about maternity glow. It is more like a fog cloud of ugly. My face has never looked worse or hair both are oily and my face constantly has zits. My lips are always dry too and I drink at least 5 liters a day of water. Let me not get into the male hair growth it is like I am sprouting like a chia pet my face my arms my legs even UNBELIEVABLE!!!!! AND AS I HAVE MENTIONED BEFORE I PEE MY PANTS NOW. Who knew? I shouldn't be complaining I am very blessed to even be pregnant but come on at some point I thought It would get better. It sucks having to depend on someone else having to shave you when you are a burly hairy girl man. I hope Jason will recover from this and find me attractive after the stuff he has to do Bless him. I love my little kicks lately though. It just hurts when Zoe attacks my Lap-Band port. She thinks its a punching bag or a kick toy I am not sure. My last ultrasound the boys are head down and side by side all you could see was two little hineys side by side shaking at us it was so cute. i hope they will do some 3-D's for me Monday so I can see their faces again. I wonder if the boys still look like Jason and the girl looks like me?

23 Weeks!

Today was a good day slept late. Made it 23 weeks yay! My house got cleaned today I just feels so nice. My Mom cooked a big dinner and I had a house full tonite it was a nice change. My friend Mandy brought her 11 day old little baby to meet us. He is a cute little man so tiny. Hard to believe he will look like a monster compared to my triplet newborns and he is 6lbs 8oz. I have never seen a preemie and now I am gonna have three,WOW!

oops!

Well had to go to the hospital tonite. Thought my water might be leaking. Well I was just peeing myself soooo not funny but better than the other. So at least I am resting easy tonite. I will be 23 weeks tomorrow.

Whew!

Went to the Peri everything went well. By the time I got to the back I had worked myself up though. My nurse practitioner went Dr.Phil on me and was offering me anti-depressants.Then she needed a clean catch urine specimen and I peed all over my pants,bad aim using a funnel for the first time. I have had so much bad news lately I was scared to even go back.Plus my friends havent come around like they promised or called so I am a little down. Babies heartbeats were strong just I was a nut case today. My stitch also seems to be doing its job YAY! My next appointment is Monday for a level-three ultrasound to see how they are growing and check my cervical length then steroid shots on Wed next week 24 weeks. I just wish it was already Wednesday next week already.

I am new to this

After reading a couple of blogs I have decided to create my own, if I can figure it out. I am 22 weeks and 5 days pregnant with Triplets. Identical twin boys and a single baby girl. I am on bed rest due to an incompetent cervix and had a cerclage put in at 19 weeks. My last Peri appointment(11/4/09) landed me in the hospital for monitoring due to funneling and possible PTL. I got out the next day and was sent home on strict bed rest and Procardia every 6 hours. Today I'm going in again to see the Peri to check my progress. So I am praying nothing has changed towards the bad only to the good. I want to make it to our 30 week goal but for now I would settle for 24 weeks and steroid shots.