Frustrated but happy

Well I got to hold Jimmie for the first time in 1 month, needless to say I cryed. They still wont give a definate date on the surgery for Zoe and Jason. We have to make plans son I need some info. I am ready for Zoe to come home and this is holding her up.

WELL IT HAS BEEN TWO MONTHS OF TURMOIL

Well surprise horror went into labor November 29th thus the no posts. When I went in I was 4 cm dilated and they saw a head they couldn't stop my labor. I was in labor for 5.5 hours and they couldn't give me anything because they were trying to stop them. But they came anyway and I had a c-section. I was 25 week 4day gestation with my triplet babies. Jimmie 1lbs 15oz Jason 1lbs 9oz Zoe 1lbs 13oz. Life has been crazy and so have I. Things are better now. Zoe is gonna come home next week so I figured I would blog again. She is gonna have hernia surgery Friday and then Monday come home probably. Jimmie had NEC and had 10cm of bowel removed he will have reconnection surgery hopefully this week too. Jason is in an open bed breathing with O2 having a time drinking a bottle and breathing still needs to learn to do both. He had RSV and his lungs are still recovering. Both boys have had heart surgery to repair a duct in their hearts and have had brain bleeds due to prematurity. They all have stage 1 retinopathy of prematurity. We are prying that they all will have no effects and that they will all grow out of these problems. We pray alot and just focus on the positive. I will be updating more often because I will be home more.

Collards

I'll be the first to say I love collard greens but the smell in horrible. Mom cooked me some tonite and the smell is unbelievable. I will probably smell like collards at the Dr tomorrow. Mom Dad April & Claire bear came over tonite and ate dinner. Claire just keeps getting cuter and bigger everyday. Jason and I watched Star Trek in bed tonite it was really good and he made me breakfast and had his Mom come over and gave me a pedicure this am. We had a talk and he's been being nice all day he knows I was upset and had a right to be. These babies are balling up tonite they feel diffrent. My Dad will be my sitter tomorrow and is going to the Dr with me he loves to see the babies.

nothing nice to say

So I guess I shouldn't say anything at all. I am so tired of life going on around me and I am stuck in a room mostly alone. When people come over they stop in off and on but everything is happening in the living room. Jason left me alone all day today and barely looked in on me. I am over it and tomorrow we will have it out. I just wish he could know how it feels to be in my shoes. But he is gonna know what I am thinking tomorrow.

Sleepy

Lack of sleep is catching up with me. I am about to take my meds and crash. one of my little people had hiccups earlier I didnt know that was what it was till my sister said so. It scared me at first felt like one might be trying to punch there way out. My left elbow is killing me from lying on my left side all the time. I think a bed sore might be trying to start. my family came over and ate dinner tonite Jason cooked steaks on the grill it was good to have everyone around. Tomorrow nite it will be Jasons family the UGA game and oysters. I am getting bigger quicker I think now which is good cause the babies are too. Well I guess i'll call it a nite.

Day two insomnia and last steroid shot

Well finally went to sleep at 6:30am Thursday morning to wake up at 10:30am Thursday morning and still be up now 1:45 Friday morning. Good thing I was up now tho, got to talk to my friend Michelle from Hawaii she was up her time. Nice to catch up I miss her terribly, wish she was here to see me go through this. She would help keep me sane. She always has when life gets tough, she knows just what to say. Anyway I hope she can come meet my Trio this summer. On a me note I am so sore tonite, my back is killing me and been doing more of that lovely leaking, kids just killing the bladder. But as I have said I love to feel my kicks. They are getting stronger now and they kick all nite. SCARY!!! I would also like to say my Mom has been wonderful and I am glad my sister brings Claire over you cant help but be happy around her little smiles. They are pretty much my constant visitors. It is amazing how many friends I can scale down off my cell phone list when this is all over since no one has kept in contact with me. Good friends are hard to come by especially when you thought you had as many as I did. It is amazing who disappears when you aren't the good time girl anymore. Se la vie and que sera sera!

Well it is late and whats on my mind? 24 weeks

As usual I am up waiting for 12:00 so I can take my anti-contraction medicine. Then I set the alarm to wake up to take my next dose then sleep till 930 or 1000. My Mom gave me my 1st steroid shot today and it didn't even hurt whew! Gotta take another one tomorrow same time different cheek. I am feeling more at ease with things. It is funny tho my stomach is sore I guess from the kicks. I am wondering how well I am gonna do buying Christmas gifts online, although I cannot afford much. I still have so much to buy before the babies get here. All the nieces and nephew will get something but a gift card shared might be all the adults get to a restaurant. I found a prayer that really touched my heart last nite and it was alot like how I felt before I got pregnant and how I would like to pray for somone who was in my shoes. I would like to share it.Someone else Angela Thomas from cbn wrote it but I loved it.

For Those Who Still Wait
Giver of Life,
My heart is burdened today for my friends who cannot have children. Like Hannah, they have spent years praying and grieving for a child who never comes. They are frazzled—worn out by doctors, books, specialists, drugs, and procedures. Many even dread seeing their families, weary of their sympathetic looks and tired of the same conversation. I grieve for my sisters and long for them to experience the wonder of new life growing and flourishing within their bodies.
Lord, give me tender compassion when I’m with them. I find myself talking about anything but pregnancy, overcompensating, understating the obvious, hoping I won’t say something hurtful. Even so, I think it hurts them just to be with me. I know some women who can’t go to baby showers or visit their friends with babies because their hearts are too raw and their pain too intense. I mourn for their hurt and pray for their healing.
Most of all, I ask that You would hear their prayers. Remember them. And grant them the answers they seek. After many years, You remembered Hannah and opened her womb. Please see my friends in their lament and answer their pleas for children. Let them rejoice with Hannah, who said in 1 Samuel 1:27, "I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him."
Thank You, Father, for watching over those who wait. I believe in the sufficiency of Your grace. I trust in the perfection of Your will. Because You bring life to the barren, there is power in my prayer.
Amen
In bitterness of soul Hannah wept much and prayed to the Lord.
—1 Samuel 1:10
He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the Lord.
—Psalm 113:9